Holy Enough to be A Problem

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What happens when a spiritually clear, coherent person enters a system built to manage crisis? A short reflection on presence, power, and being too whole to fit.

They didn’t know what to do with me.

Not because I was chaotic — but because I wasn’t.

I was calm. Clear. Unapologetically real.

And that made me a problem.

Because systems built on control don’t know how to hold presence.

They know how to respond to crisis.

They know how to assess risk.

But someone who arrives already coherent?

That’s threatening.

I didn’t fit the frame.

I wasn’t confused or broken.

I wasn’t performing distress.

I was simply — and entirely — myself.

And that was too much.

Not because I was unsafe,

but because I couldn’t be contained.

I couldn’t be diagnosed.

I couldn’t be managed.

Because what I brought into the room wasn’t disorder.

It was truth.

I’ve learned that when you walk in vibrating with clarity,

the room rearranges itself.

Some people soften.

Others spiral.

And when the system spirals, it doesn’t say “We don’t understand.”

It says:

“You’re complex.”

“You’re inappropriate.”

“You’re at risk.”

But none of that was mine.

What they were reacting to wasn’t my instability.

It was my frequency.

I wasn’t unwell.

I was just holy enough to be a problem.

Not in the spiritual-performer sense —

but in the sense of being uncontainable in a system that survives on shrinkage.

I showed up with wholeness.

And the framework had nowhere to file that.

So this is for anyone who’s ever walked into a system and been misread.

You weren’t too much.

You were just unsupervisable.

You were never the problem.

You were the reminder.

And sometimes, that’s holy work.

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